Sunday, July 30, 2006
need.to.go.halloween.party.
WHAT:
HALLOWEEN MASQUARADE PARTYWHEN:
OCTOBER 26-28, 2006WHERE:
HARD ROCK CAFE, GLORIETTA 3, MAKATIa couple of friends (whom i've never even met personally) asked me to go, with a bit of insisting of course. hahaha. it's a formal party (the MASKS!). and it'll be the time we can all finally meet.
i'm actually excited. besides,
the bloomfields will perform daw. *GRINS WIDELY*
the only sad thing is, we'll have to wait until october. *sigh*
and i want to watch them again soon, badly.********
bad trip.i didn't know that the beatles tribute would be aired on the radio.and they sang nowhere man. :(
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:47 AM |
Friday, July 28, 2006
brain drain, literally
okay, enough of those desperate/sad/depressing
fanatic posts. i sound like an idiot already.
********
(bwisit naman oh,
are you lonesome tonight? pa ang tumutugtog dito, may
spoken part pa! linsyakan nang... 'di bale, mahal ko naman si
elvis presley. hehe.)
********
earlier, we had the CSAT--college scholastic aptitude test (
my guess)--in school, which, honestly, i don't understand why on earth we had to take it. even if we won't be going there next school year.
pilit kumbaga.gahd, it was the longest (and tiring) three hours of my school year so far. we had to answer a question per
THIRTY seconds (except for
math that needed,
what? FORTY-FIVE freaking seconds?!)! and that was the most confusing
abstract reasoning i've ever seen. maybe that's what my glasses are for.
but God is really good. who would know that i needed to bring a watch today, when i don't usually wear one?
********
i don't think the
july 29 gig will push through (
again!).
don't want the details! basta i'll just say here what
joycie told me (which was through
e-mail, by the way):
try and try until you succeed.i need some immediate de-stressing though. :P
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:44 PM |
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
good ol' rock and roll
A BIG SIGH FOR ME.
what am i whining about this time?
my de-stressing act, of course.
and i'm losing hope, somehow.
...
...
...
i know...
IS THIS ME?!i feel bad. gah.
i don't feel bad because everything i expect may not happen, but because i'm not as hopeful or as optimistic as before. the worse thing is, i don't even know why.
so, i asked for a sign. i got it. now, why am i still doubtful?
ika nga, only time will tell.(the post title doesn't have any connection with the whole post. but then again, if you know me oh so very well, you understand what i exactly mean.)
ang babaw ko ano?
"I'm glad I met you" @ 9:49 PM |
Monday, July 24, 2006
JOHNNY DEPP!
HAHAHA. this post was supposed to be written last saturday, because we watched it friday night in alabang.
wala lang, i still feel dazed/amazed/confused. plus the movie was bitin.
i was never wrong on
johnny depp being my most favorite actor. he never ceases to amaze me with his acting versatility. i always come to love any movie he's starring in.
i don't even know how i liked him in the first place. maybe it's the charms; because if it is, ang hina ko talaga pagdating sa charms. :P
********
anyway, speaking of "great men" (haha), the contrast of them i've been encountering for these past few days. you could say they are/were my friends.
they could be real jerks sometimes. and that's the time you'd want to banish all the men ever existed on the planet (well, i'm exaggerating of course).
here's the point:
stretching my patience to the limits is never good. don't try to piss me off. even if i'm one of the kindest persons you'll ever meet, i can also be the most unforgiving.
********
i know, that was too harsh. HAHA....okay.
have you read my previous post before this? scratch that.
his attention-seeking tendency wasn't true at all. nagkataon lang.i knew it. i was just imagining things. poor me.but if i do experience that, especially that i'll see him every now and then, why not? there's no harm in dreaming, right?
even if it's too impossible to happen in real life. *sigh*
"I'm glad I met you" @ 8:22 PM |
Sunday, July 23, 2006
feeling all silly
for the very first time in this blog, i'm going to be posting lyrics of a song, which i find rather...
cheesy. in a way. but then again, this "happened" to me yesterday.
ironic, huh?Mis KolCraeons Nakakatawa mang isipin Kay babaw ko naman Para kiligin sayong pagpaparamdam Tila isang batang naghihintay na pansinin Naghihintay sa isang tabi Kung ako'y tatawagan Di, hindi mo man sagutin Alam kong may lihim na pagtingin Isang miskol mo lang Ako'y nabubuhay sa isang pangarap Kahit simple lang Isang miskol mo lang Meron mang kabaduyan Ngunit ito ang aking nararamdaman Nakakainis mang isipin Na nagmumukha na pala akong tanga Para maniwala at umasa Sa aking mga haka-haka Na ikaw ay may nararamdaman din Para sakin Sa bawat oras ng pagtawag mo Ng walang dahilan Isang miskol mo lang Ako'y nabubuhay sa isang pangarap Kahit simple lang Isang miskol mo lang Meron mang kabaduyan Ngunit ito ang aking nararamdaman Siguro nga ang oras ay humahanap Ng tamang panahon (ng tamang panahon) Nang dahil sa iyong pagpaparamdam Dun ako masaya (dun ako masaya) Kahit minsan lang Isang miskol mo lang Ako'y nabubuhay sa isang pangarap Kahit simple lang Isang miskol mo lang Meron mang kabaduyan Ngunit ito ang aking nararamdamanyup, i know what you're thinking. hahaha.
oh yes, it's the cheesy-ness.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:09 AM |
Thursday, July 20, 2006
to be or not to be?
confused, that is.
and that is my question.oh sure. one might say that this dilemma of mine is a really shallow one, as compared to those whose problems are about family, money, love life or even studies. ...but i guess this is important to me, because, generally,
it makes my life feel more worthwhile.
i've been known in my class as the one who goes to those "happenings"
anytime she wants and
anywhere she wants.
nah, i refuse to believe that.
of course, i'm the one who does that the most because
:
1. my parents always allow me to go.
i don't know exactly why...i have a lot of reasons in mind, actually.
is it because i do well in school? nope, i always could've done better.
is it because i'm such an obedient daughter? no, my mom often scolds me for not doing my errands right away.
or is it because they understand me? could be, since being a music freak is one of their characteristics i've inherited from them. sa mga pa-concert-concert nga namin ko nakilala ang mga 'yun eh.
totoo! makes sense, makes sense.and
2. i've got lots of time for leisure.i don't know the reason for this,
again, but fortunately, i have time. school work doesn't seem to meddle with my precious freedom time.
o baka naman dahil sa tamad lang talaga ako.
*shrugs*but there's one
temporarily sad news.
i can't go on july 28. no
beatles tribute, no orange and lemons.
oh man. it's hard to get people who'd come with me. i asked almost five, and no one was allowed to come. ...and now, i don't know what to say, really. (
yes, i'm having the so-called writer's block right now.)
everyone who knows me very well would know what i'm about to add to this entry.
i have an idea, another plan.yes, you read it right.
i'm at it again. i may be optimistic, determined or even stubborn, i don't care, just as long as it will happen. besides, with all of these new acquaintances i've met (that are fans too), i'm definitely excited.
damn, all i need is time.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 8:22 PM |
Sunday, July 16, 2006
surprise!
i feel confused when it comes to surprises.
i don't know why. maybe because sometimes i feel extremely happy, extremely disappointed or extremely
...surprised. surprised that i don't know what to do.
a few moments to consider:
1.
someone i've been dying to talk to went online. and been online for more than an hour. but i realize i don't know what to say.
gawd. in fairness, he scared the hell out of me for about thirty minutes. oh well, i guess there's more moments like that in the future. :P
2.
additional to being surprised, i hate feeling desperate. this is an excerpt of my best friend's july 15, 2006 blog entry, which i'm surprised she included.
xctd n q mg-retreat.. keia lng... gz2 q dn pmnta za gig ng Bloomfields (to see xempwe my fave---> p-e-p-e!! hehe!!)... keia lng aftr un nung reco namin... as in pg-uwi from retreat... kya cgro & most probably... hnd aq mkkpnt wid mah bheztiee-->> jess!!! huhuhu =,<and the last words are cries of desperation.
*sigh*if you are reading this (i hope you do), i really wish you could come with me. the first time, we had fun. so i hope the second time wouldn't be a bummer.
please?3. this one's a bit silly. i sang all night last night (
happy birthday, tatay! :D) and early this morning, i found my voice sounded
like a man. GAHAHA. XD i can't resist on taking
beatles songs last night, eh. i'm still a bit disappointed though. i didn't sing my dad a
birthday song, as in by
the beatles.
"they say it's your birthday! it's my birthday too, yeah!"i'm confused, really. so i hope in the coming days, there will come
other surprises that might enlighten me this time. (
gah, my mind is so blurry right now. :P)
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:19 PM |
Friday, July 14, 2006
nakakainis.
nand'yan ka na't lahat, ayaw pa rin makinig sa 'yo. ano pa bang magagawa mo?!i feel like an idiot. i really do. i guess being a sympathetic friend isn't enough. there isn't enough pieces of advice to give, comforting words to say and even hurting truths to reveal. just to make it work,
for a friend. wala eh, walang nangyari. it's back to normal like it didn't happen
AT ALL.and coincidently, i came across a book,
who stole my magic? by jenny manuel, which sat around the house for quite some time now, but i never really had the chance to read it because i wasn't that interested. it's about surviving break-ups, in case you need to know.
how ironic, i thought,
my friend's suffering from this, so i have to be supportive, blah blah blah...but she wouldn't listen. we've always told her that she didn't deserve any guy like him. and yet, now, they're back together.
oh how i hate to think that our efforts are too much in vain.but as i've said,
ano pa bang magagawa ko?!
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:06 PM |
Thursday, July 13, 2006
hopefully a sign of new things to come
FINALLY. after 20,000 years, i have changed my layout.
my day's dull, to be honest. it's like a normal day of vacation: sleep, eat, watch tv, surf the internet. though i had a plan of changing my layout today,
i never thought i'd actually do it. and now, here i am.
okay, so i have nothing to complain about anymore. it's in my favorite color, and the theme fits! hahaha.
a girl dancing her night away. since i love having fun (and recently i've been doing it in a
"partying" style), i guess we have that thing in common. oh yeah, we both
"party" with the music too.
loving music is what i'm most proud of.
and really, i
rarely find something that satisfies me completely. it took me weeks to find this, and i hope this one finally does.
i guess i had a fruitful day after all.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 6:45 PM |
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
no news is good news...right?
okay.
july 28.
...so no one's telling me anything yet.
is that a good sign? i refuse to believe it isn't, but the realistic side of me says that i shouldn't expect too much again.
syet, ni hindi pa nga rin ako nagpaparamdam sa mga magulang ko eh. and
july 28 is
just more than two weeks away.
what to do?********
no classes due to heavy rains! hooray!that's the way it should be, by the way. after several trees have fallen in school hours ago, they wouldn't cancel classes?! do they want us to die there?! ...okay, so i'm exaggerating. but still, you see the point.
yes! no
accounting, no seatwork in
physics, and no
waking up early! woohoo!
********
I WANT TO CHANGE MY LAYOUT. IT'S NOT ME.well, aside from the optimistic nature...it really doesn't fit who i am. many old friends of mine were surprised to see the
girly side of mine,
daw. i'm not even kikay, for God's sake!
YEAH, I'M DESPARATE.and there's one more thing to be thankful for of no classes:
time for a change.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:05 PM |
Sunday, July 09, 2006
i'm happy for several reasons
i just noticed i've been posting here for four consecutive days. hmmm. REASON # 1:i finished the longest retreat letter (or any letter, for that matter) i've ever written. bitin pa nga eh. it has endless pages of
kwento's, thank you's and whatnot. i have so many things to tell, and i believe it's the only right time.
REASON # 2:it's early to say such, but
2006 is a
very good year for me. i've met so many
great people, figuratively (meaning we've been friends but we really don't know each other that much) and literally (because of my obsessions--a band and a hobby).
REASON # 3:someone added me on his ym.
hahaha. i really don't want to elaborate, since it's pretty embarrassing. :P
REASON # 4:i've invited lots of people already to go on that
july 28 gig, whether a fan (of the band and of the music) or not. i haven't told my parents i'll go, but i've told my dad
about it. (there's a difference.) the only thing i'm disappointed about is that
joycie can't go. it's her retreat daw.
wtf?! retreat on a friday?!(sorry about the last one. i know, i'm supposed to be happy. don't worry joycie, i'll tell you everything about it. ;) )
"I'm glad I met you" @ 10:58 PM |
Saturday, July 08, 2006
moments
we made our
social science project today. my groupmates (
sheilah, april m., ariane, mheann, analyn and
harold) and i were supposed to work on it at school, but couldn't because we should have had a waiver. no one tried to volunteer himself (or in our case, herself) to be the host of the project-making, so i did. sayang naman sa oras namin, at alam kong "always ready" ang bahay namin for suprise visitors.
the more-than-seven-hours project-making was fun, the best among the other ones i've been to. i don't know, maybe because we're all close friends to begin with.
ah basta! :Pit's been the best week for me also. and i think it's because of the new appreciation i've received from majority of my classmates.
retreats do bestow something magical on you. ;)********
i saw him again, after a month or so.
wala lang. wala na akong galit sa kanya. i don't see any reason to be angry anyways. ewan ko lang kung nakita n'ya ako. i was secretly hoping though.
********
my twisted mind strikes again.
take a look:
July 28Beatles Tribute, Metrowalk (The Bloomfields, Orange & Lemons and Nyoy Volante)i wanna go there. badly.
********
and we have almost
two hours till
band on the run. i'm pretty excited! :D
"I'm glad I met you" @ 10:34 PM |
Friday, July 07, 2006
true friendship is what i seek.
it's really the best feeling when you learn someone special to you is appreciative of everything you are and of everything you do.
it's just hours ago, when i was reading one retreat letter. it's the most touching thing i've ever read, coming from a friend. i didn't know i was one of those few people who made her rise to the top.
and she's owing it all to me.to be honest, i've been searching for a reason to say that my high school life's the best. and after all these years, i found it in a form of a person who accepted me wholly, never doubted nor judged me, and never even tried to change me.
i'm just glad she found me the same.
blessed is the good, my friend. :)
"I'm glad I met you" @ 11:18 PM |
Thursday, July 06, 2006
i'm feeling it again...
wala lang.
i just came home from my 3-day retreat, and my cousin was right.
it was fun. i've learned, discovered and knew so many things... it's indescribable actually. i never knew my classmates appreciate me more than i had expected. i feel so
...accepted. but honestly, it just irritates me that most of them tell me off (for lack of a better term) for my silent/quiet nature.
i'd like to say that i find it hard to open up to someone and to trust someone, and i don't really know why. besides,
it's the natural me. kasalanan ko ba na ibinigay sa 'kin ng Diyos ang mapaglarong isipan na hindi tumitigil kahit anong gawin ko?!nagtatanong lang. madaldal din naman ako ah (as proven by this i-don't-know-what-relevance-to-the-world-this-has blog of mine).
wala lang.
anyway, that is not why i posted this new entry. i just recalled what some of my classmate had said to me when we had our heart-to-heart talk yesterday. three people, namely
gold,
joanne and
riela (if ever you're reading this, HI! :P) told me that they wanted to go with me i whenever i decide to go to a gig again. i feel flattered in a way, considering we don't talk much (which i hope is no one's fault). i only have one band in mind though. and that's because i'm kinda desparate; i don't have much free time.
ayan tuloy, gusto ko na ulit pumunta ng gig nila.
nakakainis. at kahit sabihin n'yo na matagal ko nang niluluhuran ang altar namin para lang d'un, mas desperado na ako ngayon. grabe na ang kalokahan ko. dadagdag pa na may mas malapit na silang regular gigs sa south.
nakakainis talaga.may pumasok na naman sa isipan ko.
what if i go right after the first quarterly exams in august? it'd be the most possible aside from my birthday, which, i believe, is still three months away?
haha, i wish.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 1:32 AM |
Sunday, July 02, 2006
i don't know what to make out of this.
ang babaw ko talaga.
kahit kailan.
i happen to lose my wallet last thursday. the weird thing about it is that i
really don't know what happened: whether it was misplaced, dropped somewhere or stolen. it was the first time i lost a valuable,
really.
that day, i was with
sheilah when we decided to eat at the food palace (a.k.a. scubs/scooby, haha). i hadn't brought my wallet then because my cellphone was big enough in my pocket. she was then taunting me that someone might steal it (specifically s'ya raw). i then got my wallet, and we ate there.
we parted ways minutes after eating, and i came back for my bag, put my wallet inside, and left for the ride home. it was already nighttime when i checked my bag for my wallet, and
it's already gone. :'(
i was on the verge of crying that night, after telling my mom and dad, but
as usual, i was as
optimistic as ever.
hinding-hindi mawawala sa eksena talaga 'yang pagiging hopeful ko.
what really makes me gloomy is not the money (which was only 200 pesos), but its contents, particularly the tickets i have of
the bloomfields. i know what you'll say:
sila na naman...
seriously, those are one of the
most memorable things i have.
how about the pictures? most of them are print-outs lang, so nasa computer ko lang din yun. nanghihinayang talaga ako dun sa ticket ko nung
may 31 sa
bellevue, kasi
may autograph ni pepe sa likod yun (mainly thanks to
joycie). and fyi, his message contained one of my favorite expressions, incidentally.
nalulungkot talaga ako.and because i'm the type who values every possession (i think i might have
separation anxiety), it's very hard to let go. but i guess it's about learning how to.
besides, i believe that there's more to come, now that i've lost something. it's still a blessing in a way (
ang optimistic ko talaga! kuh!). i'm actually thinking twice of finding it, kasi baka makita ko na 'yun.
nlabo. hahaha. it might ruin my chance of thinking better things.
in short, that means: more encounters/memories for me! yay! hahaha. that goes for more gigs too. *quickly hides* i need free time though. haaay.
"I'm glad I met you" @ 5:42 PM |
