Saturday, February 28, 2009
in keeping with tradition (and promises)I'll be greeting this guy for three years in a row now, without any fail.
The first time I greeted him, I stated all the basics about him and well, perhaps I did that to introduce him to whoever reads this blog. Like my favorite movies of him, his Broadway background, his being on House, even his love life, lol. And that ended with "He's one of my favorite people," or something like that. :D
The second time, though, was different. This time it was more personal, with me stating why I truly loved him aside from playing that womanizer oncologist "Wonder Boy" on House. Which is obviously his Broadway background. :P Also, I wrote this in almost an open-letter format which is commonly used to address them directly, making it really more personal. And in the end of that post, I was complaining that Amber was the least person I'd want Wilson to be with. But then you know, I liked her until the end. Okay, not the point. XD Finally I mentioned writing a House/Wilson fic to celebrate, which, honestly, I haven't finished writing yet. XD You know, having 10 fandoms all at once? NOT EASY. ROFL.
Anyway, for this year, I'll make it short and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT SEAN LEONARD! ♥
On a more random note: The Lonely Island's album is the most addicting thing ever. I said it a few days ago, and I'm still addicted to that thing. *o* Seriously, these dudes' work are the randomly weirdest thing I'd be addicted to, but. They are all kinds of amazing if you ask me. akljdfs. And if you're going to listen to Incredibad, DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUSLY, GOD. Take it as a comedy album because it is and god I don't even mind the cursing, which is pretty odd because I hate too much cursing. (Oh and listen to Boombox! That's my favorite song off the album weeps)
Oh god now I want RSL to host SNL or something, just to have all my favorite boys all together. (With Bill too!) ;___________;
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Tuesday, February 24, 2009
i can't think straight right nowThis will seem ridiculous. VERY. I'm already warning you. So if ever you read this and go, "This is the silliest thing I've ever read--this girl is just too insane sometimes," well. I already said I warned you. ;PPP
Here we go.
Honest to God, I've never been upset of any show on television that has ended. What's weird is that I never expected to be this upset, that I believe it has entered my subconsciousness for good. What's even weirder is that although the show has ended, its host will still be around--actually long around and have, technically, a better stint than he had for the past 16 years--and will just be relocated to a warmer, more laid-back environment.
For those who are familiar with the Late Night Talk Show scene, you already know whom I'm talking about. For those who are not, he's Conan o'Brien (I'm not linking anything--I'm pretty sure you recognize that name).
I swear I don't know what's wrong with me that (1) I'm writing about this; (2) I'm feeling like this towards this subject; and (3) I'm writing about how I'm feeling like this towards this subject.
Yes, a part of me cannot get over everything. Again, I wish I knew exactly why. Perhaps since he is leaving New York, 30 Rock, a part of me seems upset with that. (And I might know the reason why, but I prefer not to dish it out here, lol.)
I think it would be best to tell you how I've come to love this host, although I haven't been following him too closely in reality (which I regret, but more on this later).
Let's just say I've watched enough nightly talk shows in order to pick a favorite: David Letterman, Jay Leno, Craig Ferguson, Jimmy Kimmel. (I know it's not everyone, but it's enough, right?) When I was a bit younger, about a few years, I never really noticed the difference among these hosts. I thought they were all the same. And yet, yet, Conan has captured my heart without me knowing it. I mean, I don't know when I started favoring him over all the other hosts, but I surely did.
I remember getting a bit bummed out that we only had David Letterman over here before, a few years ago, because I really wanted to watch Conan for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I certainly understand Letterman's humor, but it was just not entertaining enough for me. (And trust me, with this attention span, a show would be lucky enough to hold my attention for five minutes. Seriously.)
My best guess as the reason for this is that I have been hooked on his charms. As you probably know by now, I'm known to be susceptible to charms, so. Anyway, ever since, I have regarded him as one of my most favorite persons in the whole world.
But it wasn't until recently that I'd realized why I fell in love with him in the first place. I guess you could say that it was hitting two birds with one stone, because as I realized that little fact, I also discovered an entire new fandom which I'm currently enjoying thank you very much. :D But I digress. I think I've come to love Conan (and appreciate his humor) for lots of reasons: he's honest, quirky, smart--being part of SNL and the Simpsons writing staff before hosting Late Night (YES I HAVE TO ADD THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO KILL ME FOR THAT), he's the type to laugh at himself (which, btw, I admire A LOT), and. He's an awesome, awesome person. Also, I think the way he interviews his guests is the most effective method I've ever seen anyone use. It makes him seem a lot more approachable than most hosts. :)
Moving on, I've learned of his move to an earlier timeslot, replacing Jay Leno on the Tonight Show, about two years ago, so actually, this wasn't a big surprise. But I guess the fact that he's moving from one side of the country to the other, I'm sure there will be a lot of changes because of that.
I still love the fact that he stated in his "farewell" speech on his last show that he'd never grow up. Honestly that statement made my heart flutter, for two reasons: I'm glad he doesn't want to change, despite moving to an earlier timeslot and being exposed to a bigger audience; and I absolutely love people who don't let other people's judgments affect their own, if they're not doing anything wrong of course. I admire Conan for saying that once and for all, and I'm pretty sure all his fans appreciate that as much as I do. ♥
So to speak, I'm having mixed feelings about this. A little piece of my heart is broken that he is leaving NYC, but of course, a huge part of me is happy and wants him to succeed to LA, which I hope he really does. And what the hell am I so sad about? It's more possible that I get to be in LA than in NY for God's sake. Xp
But there is one thing that makes me sad more than anything else: I keep on regretting that I didn't watch Late Night when I had every chance I got. I've encountered this show for more than just three years, and it's only within the last four months that I get to watch it religiously. *sigh* Don't worry Conan, I'll surely stand by the Tonight Show when you start hosting it. :D
As part of my conclusion (LOL this sounds so formal when it's supposed to be a bit personal), here are some of the reviews/news reports--which have convinced me to post this even more--that I've encountered while randomly surfing the web:
Conan O'Brien packing up for move West - This news was the first one; it certainly made me realize how soon he was leaving Late Night.
Conan O'Brien Takes a Bow on Last Late Night - What irks me about this whole moving thing is how some people wouldn't give Conan a chance, whether they are a Leno or a Carson fan. But that's about the comments on this post, lol. I couldn't care less what they think, Conan is Conan. Anyways, I totally love the last line of this news post. SO TRUE.
Good-bye to Conan's 'Late Night' - FINALLY, fans who totally love Conan. (This is why I love TWoP as well!) This is a recap and commentary just a few days before the final show.
Our Last Look at Conan's 'Late Night' - THE REPORT THAT HAS GOTTEN ME WEEPING IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER SCREEN FOR SOMETHING THAT'S NOT EVEN PERMANENT. T____________T Why? Because what they said in that was all true and touching and a-and. I just wept. I still have tears in my eyes whenever I think about it.
Look, I know he's not leaving! ;P He even laughed during his last shows whenever people in the audience booed him for leaving NY, saying he'd never be gone (or dead XD). But you know, I'll miss Late Night for sure.
Interesting tidbit: Would you believe I dreamt about Conan the night his last show aired here? NOT KIDDING, OH NO. I was hanging out with him in Hollywood, and he was showing me around (wasn't that supposed to be the other way around? XD). I guess even my subconsciousness knew how upset I was that night. Oh well.
Oh and another random note: The Lonely Island's album weep it's killing me with its awesomeness. I seriously don't know how or why, but I'm amazingly addicted to the songs. B-Boys. Why so talented and funny at the same time. ;o; (I congratulate Andy, Jorma and Kiv for such a successful album! \o/ Love you boys. ♥)
EDIT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGE HARRISON! ♥
Keeping my promise, lol.
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Monday, February 23, 2009
i'm sickie~ (as my neechan would say ;o;)Yes. I have a fever running. It's worse earlier, much worse, that I needed to sleep it off after watching the Oscars, lol. I think it's kind of cyclical (this is me being superstitious) as in I get sick either every year or more frequently, every six months--the last time I had a fever was in August last year. What sucks really is that my parents are not around; they left for Malaysia last Saturday. ;o;
I sort of diagnosed myself and prescribed my own medication though. Luckily when my dad called, I was right about the medicine: just a simple pain-reliever would do. XD (I also have a headache, although it's pretty much gone now.)
Anyway, I have memes to post here that I've been meaning to post for the last two days. Good thing I haven't totally forgotten about them, because I nearly did a few days ago, lol.
Tagged by both Avee and Nicole
1. Write your LJ username
2. Write your two favorite bands/groups at the moment [not overall, just currently]
3. Write either I ♥ k-pop ; I ♥ j-pop ; I ♥ c-pop [this isn't really for anything, just to see how you draw hearts xD]
4. Write the name of your favorite person of all time [e.g. Yamada Ryosuke]
5. Write down your recently favored person [e.g. G-Dragon]
6. Tag 5 people to do this meme
And this is from Avee as well :)
Reply to this post, and I will list three or more things I like about you. Then repost to your own journal to spread the love.
Finally, I apologize if I haven't been around lately (or perhaps in the next few days). I really don't have an excuse, but. Rest assured I just need some time to get back on the fandom again. Don't worry though, I haven't completely hid myself--I still watch Mei-chan no Shitsuji and Uta no Oniisan. :DDD
I'll get back to you dearies in a few days, all right? Have a good day! ♥
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Friday, February 20, 2009
another milestoneCan you believe it?
THE THIRD TIME IS THE CHARM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG!
YOU'RE ALREADY THREE YEARS OLD!
*throws confetti*
So yes, I sound like an idiot with nothing else to say. Nevertheless, I should mention that in the past year, I have already posted 115 entries, making my post count 275. I may not have reached my
To have more purpose for this post XD, Here's a few highlights of the past year for me and my bloggie ♥:
1) For the past year, I've discovered two fandoms mainly: the very obvious Arashi (If you still don't know about this, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING ALL THIS TIME? UNDER A ROCK?), and technically, Saturday Night Live. SNL came totally at the last minute, as in December last year. Anyway, all other things that have kept my interest are Super Junior, J-actors (Tamaki Hiroshi and Mizushima Hiro mostly :D) and a bit of We Got Married.
2) This is especially for Jo: It's been a year since
3) I have, more often than I wanted to, experienced the Roller Coaster of Emotion. I noticed that whenever I post something very personal it ended up being serious, sometimes too serious, so I've tried to balance that with my insanty or with my fangirling, which oddly, can mean the same thing.
4) I've revisited ALL of my old fandoms, just for the heck of it--especially that I learned that I could recover all my lost Whose Line files. LOL. And surely, LiveJournal has helped a lot with that. :)
Which reminds me, I need to join a whole bunch of LJ comms other than Arashi comms. XD
5) Still Arashi related, I'm sorry, but this should be quite an amusing fact: Ninomiya Kazunari took a long time to become my ichiban, although he had become my niban (a position he also shared with Sakurai Sho at the time) with Aiba Masaki as my unofficial ichiban. How he became my official, full-time ichiban was the fault of a song--Gimmick Game. *facepalms*
6) Arashi fans are awesome: scans, subs, translations, downloads, friends. Half of what makes Arashi awesome is their fans. ♥
7) I stopped greeting birthdays at my blog because I'm cross-posting at LJ as well, and I think people at my friends list over there wouldn't care less about the people I was greeting. I'm currently keeping a journal though, with birthdays, so I still do the greetings on that. :) I might still greet some people every once in a while though, but mostly I'll do it here.
8) This is the first year where I've been willing ENOUGH to learn another language. You know what language it is, right? ;D
9) Ohno's new drama: Maou! Arashi Around Asia again! Four singles in a year! Number 1 single of the year!
...I may have entered the fandom too late, but surely I've entered in the best time. :Db
10) I've written a lot of mini-stories, more than poems (I think). Most commonly a mini-story resembles a real-life situation that I went through, sometimes it's fandom-related--you just have to distinguish which is which. XD Seriously though, I'm glad I've resorted to writing as my therapy. It helps. A lot.
11) Line of the year: "Remember kids, this is EXACTLY why I turn to fangirling, so that I can continue to believe that there are actually good people left in this world, who aren't selfish and stupid."
It can be found in this post. :Dv
12) Title of the year: pressured = fangirling like mad
:Db
13) My debut! How could I forget! I have only one final say on that day though: That's the happiest day of my life so far, but I was sad that it was one night only.
14) I. Made a lot of random posts, as in more of lists rather than actual paragraphs. I d-don't know exactly why that is.
15) My DS Lite!! ♥♥♥ That is officially my "son" (yes, it's a boy XD)
16) A lot of meme! Fun meme! :D
17) And to end this highlights-of-the-year list: ARASHI HAS EATEN MY BRAIN. I guess that's all you need to know about that particular fandom.
Oh and I think as a birthday gift to my blog, I persuaded my dad to persuade my mom to let me use her credit card for my yet another Arashi shopping. I ordered the calendar and the AAA 2008 DVD!!!1!!1! *jumps up and down*
And for someone who's celebrating his birthday again:
There's just one thing
I've never considered as imperfect
And as silly as that thought seems
For you I will be direct
It's you, my white knight
My number one guy, my role model
The one who has opened my eyes
And shaped my world well
You are the reason why I care
Why I live for the people that I love
I thank you with all my heart
You are truly sent to me from above
It's spontaneous, cheesy and unexpected, but. I've already said what I can say to you over the past two years. I just hope you will continue to be the admirable person that you are, because you truly, truly are the reason why I am what I am.
Happy birthday, Bri. ♥
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i've finally figured you out.I've always asked myself why I've tried and tried to make sense of everything that's happened between and around us. We had our little moments, and that always gave me hope, but actually, there's nothing more after that. I ended up hoping more than the reality could provide me. Worse, I couldn't blame you enough, because you're one of the nicest guys I've ever met, literally. Yet somewhere inside my head, I knew there's something (or someone) I should blame for whatever confusion I had. So of course, by default, I firstly blamed myself: for falling to that typical nice-guy approach you've always shown to all the people that you meet; for not preparing myself for anything that would happen; for being so naive, so stupid.
But when I realized my situation (and actually another person's, but let's not go to that), after years of hoping and months of wondering, I've finally learned what's wrong with what you're doing, despite you being almost perfect.
Firstly, your charms--you certainly know how to use it, and God knows how many women you've made swoon to that particular characteristic of yours. The thing is, you use it all the time; and I've always felt you've used it too much--like you never know how to control it. The result: you left me confused as to what your true intentions were. Maybe I was stupid enough to misunderstand things, but no one could ever completely blame me for everything. (You heard me.) It has always been you who constantly use that charm.
Secondly, your awareness--perhaps this is what I feel most strongly about, although I know I can't prove this definitely. Nevertheless, at least this is what I've observed over the years. Simply put, you've never been aware. I mean, you're nice and (more than) approachable and sweet, but you never try to understand the consequences. For instance, you've never known how I must've felt after everything. You've never even tried, at all. So to speak, I guess your only flaw resides on the fact that you are too oblivious, if not insensitive. I know it sounds harsh, but again, it's my observation and I feel too strongly about this not to let it out.
I guess, you're a typical guy after all.
Finally, the fact that you never stop. You've done it before, you did it again recently, and I'm betting that surely, you'll do it again once we meet. I don't know exactly when you will realize, but I believe it won't be too soon. I'm underestimating you, that's true, but then again I've known you for a while now. And people do not easily change. You will do it again, maybe not to me, maybe not to someone else I know, but you most certainly will.
Notice how these three are very much related to each other, and how much they all lead to one thing: that you do not control something you should, and that you ignore something that you should not.
Don't worry though; I won't want to kill you the next time I see you, cry and beg for your attention, nor do I demand for your apologies. Suffice to say now that I've finally read you like a book (and hopefully I really have), I won't be caught off-guard as badly as before. You're still a nice guy after all. I just wish you well and hope that I'll be the last of your victims, because even if you don't intend it, you have hurt someone. And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one you can pertain to as "someone".
*breathes out* Woo! Nice to have it all out, finally. :D
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Saturday, February 14, 2009
just dropping byHAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY GUYS!
♥ ♥ ♥
Regardless of with whom you spent it, I hope you all had a wonderful time! :D
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Tuesday, February 10, 2009
currently on Jun phaseReason # 1: THIS.
Reason # 2: Hana Yori Dango Returns.
I have no reason of rewatching the drama all of a sudden other than clearing a space off of my external hard drive. I'm not kidding. I burned all the HYD stuff because it's taking so much space (and would you believe I cleared off more than 10GB? ;o;) and BAM! I'm in love with that ﾊﾞｶ all over again. I also burned Myuu no Anyo Papa ni Ageru, but. Let's not go there anymore. *weeps*
Reason # 3: Happy!Jun has gotten to me again. ;___;
Well, AnS will always be blamed for this. I get kind of weak when I see Jun happy and giddy and dorky and always game and lsdjfkgsa. What's worse (?), I can see Jun's efforts of getting closer to Sho and that gets my itty bitty weak heart every time. ♥ (Remember the "Sakurai-kun, do you like Ryuuta-kun?" and the leather jacket? Yeah.)
I just want to declare that, is all. 8D
Also, from An-chan, you see how lonely the Hime is? I-I can't even. WOW, JUN.
P.S. I want like, this week's ANS to be subbed now. It's got too much dork (those costumes OMG) and too much newhair!Nino and I want to flail about newhair!Nino. l;sd;lfjddsak I've never liked his hair sooo much. ;___;
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Saturday, February 07, 2009
what a short weekendHere's a meme from roobes83@LJ and Avee! ♥ I particularly enjoyed this one. :)
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged. (I TAG NO ONE. OR EVERYONE! XD)
1. I love writing about things and listing them: special events, lyrics of current favorite song, things-to-do, even stories, because I'm fond of reading myself (even in my silliest times XD), aside from the fact that in the first place, I have a faulty memory.
2. I'm a perfectionist, in a very bizarre way. I never become satisfied with anything I do, and yet I know I've always done my best in everything.
3. I admit this wholeheartedly: I'm a complete hopeless romantic.
4. I'm fond of various TV shows, bands and celebrities, but I'm a fan of only the following: Backstreet Boys, Whose Line is it Anyway?, House M.D., The Beatles, The Office (US), Doctor Who, Psych, and of course, Arashi. That's in chronological order, btw.
5. My music taste and influence spans fifty years. And now, it spans various cultures as well. LOL.
6. I also happen to be a very introvert person—that I don't speak much to people I just met, except if I know that we have something in common and that I hate forcing myself to have small talks. That's why I'm also amazed at my mom, who can absolutely talk to anyone, anytime, anywhere.
7. My sister and I have an interesting story. Apparently having a five-year gap made it hard for us to get along when we were younger. When I was in grade school, my sister was in high school, and we attended the same school. Yet we didn't talk often about ourselves (although I knew of my sister's antics back then XD), nor did we goof around much. (You have to take note that I was too shy before as well.) Now, we goof around like a bunch of drunks on New Year's Eve, and we're much closer now. :D
8. I never got used to sleeping "early", even when I was in grade school.
9. I'm naturally clumsy. I often trip, knock down something—I even knocked down a mug on a department store XD—or bump into someone. What's interesting is that I have various relatives (especially MY MOM) who have such tendencies. I guess it's in the genes, huh.
10. I love attending concerts, especially with my family.
11. I'm the kind of person who is very thrifty (stingy? lol) in everything: money, paper, supplies, just to name a few.
12. I love (and always will) singing Gospel songs, since I became part of the school choir (though audition was compulsory) when I was in the fourth grade. In fact, I have the lyrics and chords of Gospel songs in my laptop.
13. I was a tomboy when I was younger. I only had guys, my cousins to be precise, as playmates, and we often played guy games: baseball, toy guns, toy cars, and even Sentai stuff. It didn't help that my sister was THE tomboy of our group.
14. In connection to # 13, because of my tomboy tendencies, I was known in my class as "the tomboy in the group who only looked at boys as her playmates". I also used that as repellence to boys who liked me at the time. (I wonder why I had such a strong resistance to guys I didn't like before. XD)
15. I love collecting anything worth collecting: concert tickets, pens, stationeries, CDs, DVDs, books, etc.
16. I'm the most optimistic person you'll ever meet. Even though I'm aware that the situation is clearly very hopeless, I still won't think it's that bad; I always see the bright side of everything. That's also why I don't worry too much in times of bad moments.
17. I've been dreaming of being a painter since I was a kid, but I realized that I had no talent whatsoever. I ended up being a writer instead.
18. Boys talk! :P I never look for this when I look at guys, and this is something I've just noticed this of all the guys that I’ve liked (especially celebrities haha): physically, I'm fond of guys with prominent cheekbones and/or jawbones (aside from being adorable that is, lol); personality-wise, there must be sense of humor (sarcasm!!) and shamelessness.
19. I love, love, love vocal harmonies! That's why I love Boyz II Men, the Backstreet Boys, the Beach Boys and the Beatles. :)
20. I have no definite career goals, because I don't know what would happen to me in the future anyways. I'd like to have a sense of mystery on that part, perhaps partly because I'd to be surprised about that as well. (And this is where optimism comes in. ^^)
21. I've always wanted to feel independent, even though all my life I've been dependent to someone or something else.
22. I hate tedious puzzles. And there's only one reason: laziness.
23. I love video games, even when I was still younger. (If you're wondering, yes, that's also influenced by my cousins, lol.) But what's interesting is that I love it even more when I'm observing someone who plays waaay better than I do. ...*cough*
24. Sports and I have a love-hate relationship. Sometimes we like each other, sometimes we don't. And sometimes it's somewhat one-sided, most commonly on my side. orz
25. I've never been a fan of thrill rides. I'm an acrophobic, and I hate the feeling of being dropped. I can't really elaborate more but sometimes I regret that I have that fear.
So, any questions? I'll entertain them while I'm still willing to, lol.
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Okay, so I went to Procter & Gamble in Makati yesterday for a career day, and I've never felt so tired having done a written examination. Like seriously. .___.
I came at the office building just 45 minutes before the whole thing started, and I thought I would go there alone, when after signing up I saw Jo :D right there standing in the line. Anyway, even though we previously had buddies with us for that day, we ended up accompanying each other when they didn't arrive on time. Talk about coincidence. XD
We had the "cool" office tour—seriously it's cool, they have the Wii Room, the iPod Room, the Dancers Room, it's dangerous enough for us procrastinators. Then the career talk with employees' testimonials, and then the application exam. Which probably wasn't the worst I've taken, but. If it gives you headaches like there's no tomorrow, then. I swear to God that's the worst headache I've ever had. You don't even want to know how I dealt with that before falling asleep. (And damn it I wanted to sleep!!!!)
II
My cousin texted me last night, asking if I already had Beautiful days. Honestly, I thought she had forgotten about it, because last Christmas when she'd asked me what I wanted as a gift, that's what I had told her. LOL. Anyway, I was wondering why she asked all of a sudden, and when I asked her, she told me she was in Thailand. I totally forgot she was going there on February!!
So I asked her if she'd already watched the concert (she went there for—you guessed it—Super Junior), and she said only the press conference was over and the concert was to follow later. She was super disappointed though to find out that her favorite, Kyuhyun (Prince Kyu!), wasn't there. At least she get to see the rest of her favorite
I'm expecting stories when she comes back from Thailand, so to speak. XD
III
Ladies and gentlemen, we have a Wii. And my mom totally was the one to blame for that.
She wanted to do some exercises on the Wii, apparently, and she told me it's her gift to herself. LOL. My dad's starting to ask me what games I want for the console, and for someone who has only played once ever, I don't know what to ask. (Guys, if you have recommendations, this is the right time to give me some. XD)
Honestly, my mom would be the last person to be interested in video games. Srsly.
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Since many people have already made a picspam for this week's AnS, I have only one thing to say about this episode:
NAGASE TOMOYA IS ONE AWESOME SENPAI. *o*
Lastly, VOICE is already subbed!! Wooo~ I miss Toma for some reason. XD
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Wednesday, February 04, 2009
even though you don't know...and even though you're not going to read this, here I go.
I apologize for thinking of you in that way, for thinking of your situation in that way, for even thinking of such things. I'm known to be incapable of controlling myself (because most of the time I don't think I'm doing any harm--yet), and this time even I know that I've far become too uncontrollable that although I am not hurting you or someone who's involved with you, what I've done is truly unfair to you.
I guess it's safe to assume that I've never felt so guilty for doing this to you, despite the situation seeming to be inevitable, that I cannot even excuse myself; I cannot get rid of this feeling myself because I know how big and regrettable this mistake has become.
I feel truly sorry, and I'm willing to do everything in my power to make it up to you.
Perhaps by now you're wondering what I will do or how I will be from hereon. I tell you--there's only one thing I'm very certain about: I'll still admire you, but I will know my limits. Maybe I'll admire you from a distance, and this time I'm going to stand by what I've firmly decided to do, never to disgrace you again.
I know I cannot stop completely, because I believe you should be admired just as you rightly deserve to be admired. So please forgive me because I never meant to hurt you, or anyone around you.
I only meant to love you.
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Sunday, February 01, 2009
i guess it's that time againI don't think I'm coherent enough to make a coherent post. So you'll have to excuse my random ramblings... I guess like you always do. XD
And you know I love all of you guys for that. ♥ Updates ahead!
1) I've been doing well in school, and this actually surprises me. I got one of the highest scores in my major (and while I've had the professor before, I NEVER got excellent grades from her), and yes, I consider that a miracle. I also did well in the quizzes of my two other subjects, thankfully. :)
2) Just last Wednesday, in that same major subject, did it hit me that I'M GOING TO BE WORKING AT A CORPORATION IN FOUR MONTHS. As part of my degree, I have 3 three-month terms of On-the-job training at a company. And I'll be starting in mid-April/May. So many things appeared in my mind: Where will I end up? Will I do well? Will I have my chance of working/studying overseas? And I hear there's more free time when you start working :P
3) I have this friend/classmate, who is the MOST spaced-out person I've encountered. I mean, I've known him since freshman year (he's my blockmate), and he really is THAT spacey. And I didn't think of Ohno until I learned that the term for his weirdness is "spacey". XDD Let me show you what I mean.
After class...
Spacey: I'm going to sell calculators in our bookstore.
Me: That's great! You're really into this salesman thing, aren't you?
Spacey: Yeah! *end of conversation, turns back on us*
Jenny: *starts talking about other things with me*
Me & Jenny: *about to leave*
Jenny: *to him* Bye, *insert his name here*!
Spacey: *ignores*
Jenny:
Me:
Me: Uh.
Spacey: *looks back at us*
Spacey: ?
Spacey: *realizes* Bye!!
Me & Jenny: LOL.
4) I watched the second episode of Mei-chan no Shitsuji! I love this drama now. And Kiba. And Rihito. But more of this drama. I wonder how Rihito and Mei would end up if there's a rule against mistress-butler love? (I have a theory, and it's not good. ;___;) And I'm still wondering why Rihito chooses Mei, since there are many hints that lead to this. akljfdsklf I need subs of the third episode~ *dies*
5) I KNOW WHAT I FORGOT IN MY UTA NO ONIISAN POST: OHNO'S TAN. I completely have nothing against his fishing and
6) Okay, since I've been thinking about "working" overseas (albeit that's not really an option in my OJT right now because it's too troublesome for me to work only three months and go back here and study again), I didn't immediately see my mom's attempt to negotiate my "future" with me.
I've never told her about my OJT worries just yet, and um. She tried to talk me into taking my Masters in Washington or California, since we have no worries of lodging there. Then she started rambling about leaving the country and whatnot, and telling me to never forget about my younger brother, who's autistic. Now, it's true that I've never talked about my brother's future, but even before my mom told me this, I'd vowed to myself that he's going to be my "social responsibility" when I enter the corporate world. I'm going to help him get better, because not only my parents invested on his welfare so much and I want to help them on that, but also I want my parents to be happy. I know that's the only thing my mom is really wishing for, so.
I really wish I could do my Masters in the States though.
7) I can't think of anything else. So this is my final number. :P
And because I had nothing to do last Friday while waiting for a meeting with my organization...
You Are Traditional and Dependable |
 You view the world with childlike wonder. You are very inquisitive. You can help but spy, investigate, and ask questions. You are a natural communicator and facilitator of harmony. You value peace above everything else. You're sweet and easy to please. You seek out comfort in your life. You seek security in your life. Feeling safe is important to you. |
Almost completely true, especially the one that talks about harmony. I hate it when people fight. :)
You Attract a Leo |
 When attention hungry, dramatic Leo meet you, they've met their match. You can intrigue any Leo who's used to being fawned over and worshipped. You don't try to steal the spotlight from your Leo. Instead, you offer the right mix of mystery and novelty. You understand that as long as you don't upstage your Leo, your Leo loves to show you off! |
No comment. XD
You'll Have 2 True Loves |
 You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 3 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month. |
LOL, Jenny agreed on the first sentence. But hey, it's not like I have different boyfriends every week. Having different crushes, on the other hand... XDD
Guess who's born on the 17th of a particular month...
Gosh, I'm already sleepy. That's it for now, guys! G'night! ♥ ♥ ♥
"I'm glad I met you" @ 12:52 AM | 0 were glad to meet me.
