*Turning back time...with life's goodness.*

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

you are a pushover.

Gosh, I've always wanted to tell a person that. Someone whom I hated because he didn't seem to care. Hey wait a minute. I think I know someone right now who is just like that!

Whether he'd been treating me the same or not, I don't care. He's not going to change what he thinks of me anytime soon, anyways. Even if I keep on hoping and pining for him, that fact is never going to change. Perhaps I'm just bitter, and that's how I became indifferent of him lately. I even wrote him a "hate" letter. Want to read about it? XD

Geez, that is what I hate about him. I cannot prove myself right about him. Maybe I could, but I'm still on my way there. Hopefully he does notice what I'm doing. And besides, what does he still need from me anyways? He doesn't "need" me anymore. So I guess I shouldn't need him as well.

It's just a balance of life, what I'm doing. That's the downside of being fair all the time (as in the nature of a true blue Libra). He treats me nicely; I treat him nicely. He ignores me; I decide to ignore him as well. Although I know in his face I can't be downright mad, I surely can be cold to him. Is it his fault? Probably. But maybe it's mostly my fault.

Now I can't understand why I even went through all this crap. I can't even begin to understand why I liked him. Was it only because of that? Because if it was, then really, I'm just a kid who really needs some attention. That's all it is. Oh well, that's what I needed from him: attention. If he can't give it to me now, then it all ends here. Right now. I won't be giving him my attention, if that's how he wants it. Then now he'll probably notice I've changed.

I'm speaking again too soon, aren't I? Well, I'm just too impatient. Even in this few weeks it has been a twisted roller coaster ride. *breathes out*

I need someone to tell me how he feels about me. By then, I think I might change my mind. For the better or for the worse, I'll take it like a man.

"I'm glad I met you" @ 8:31 PM |

"I know you're out there."

I turn back time to relive each moment...
I turn back time to revive each emotion I've felt...
I turn back time to feel the happiness I have sensed some time in my life.

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