*Turning back time...with life's goodness.*

Monday, December 03, 2007

i need comforting words

Here I go again.
I can't seem to stop making open letters/blog posts about you.
I guess I am getting more and more impatient by the minute.
I bet if you were actually reading these, you'd be sick of me by now.
But I can't help that you're the only one who can understand what I am going through.
And that's not assuming you have gone through the same.
It's just that I'd like to believe that you would understand everything that I would tell you...
(As if you're listening to me.)
...because I have made you like that.

I couldn't think of any other reason why, aside from the fact that I'm constantly needing an assurance of some sort.
But now, I have another reason.
I have made you like that because I need you to be like that; not just an assurance, but a sulking ground.
Maybe that has a negative connotation to it, but let's just say that the fact that it's you takes away that certain connotation.
And it helps me, more than anyone would know.

I need comforting words...
...is it because just like these past months, I'm turning to you, for I'm beginning to feel lonely again? (Yes, it was his fault, not mine. And I'll stand by it.)
...or is it because I feel the need to celebrate for having gone a phase I've been trying to struggle through for the past four months?

Which is more likely?

Honestly, I don't need to know the reason myself.
For all I know, I'm just saying that I need comforting words (especially from you) because I just want to talk to you; or I just want you to talk to me, for that matter.
Or maybe I'm just missing you again.

I do keep missing you.
I don't know why.
Was it seeing you smile and laugh?
Was it observing how you stand so tall and how you walk with such a good posture?
Was it noticing how you can be so arrogant yet so kind at the same time?
Was it looking at you entirely?
Or was it knowing that I could be beside you even we're miles apart?

(I'm good at being cheesy, aren't I? I have no pretenses. That's the point. MY point.)

That is why I need your comforting words, I guess.

"I'm glad I met you" @ 12:08 PM |

"I know you're out there."

I turn back time to relive each moment...
I turn back time to revive each emotion I've felt...
I turn back time to feel the happiness I have sensed some time in my life.

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