*Turning back time...with life's goodness.*

Saturday, May 10, 2008

i'm all mushy

"I hope you can find your own happiness someday!"

He heard her shout out in the rain. As much as he didn't want to listen to her, a part of him wanted to, for the simple reason that she never stopped believing in him.

Restraining himself from looking back at her, he murmured to himself, "That's what I'm hoping as well."

He was known to others as a cheerful and funny guy, like he had no worries at all. But the truth was, as hard as he laughed when jokes were said to him, the same hard intensity of pain always hit him. No one ever knew that he felt that way; he never told anyone about those.

But she knew.

He never told her, but she knew that he was lonely. She knew he wasn't satisfied with his own life. She knew everything.

"You don't have to tell me, if that's what you're getting at." She once told him, when he tried to slowly but surely ask her why she could sense his feelings. "It's not hard to know when I can see it clearly in your eyes."

How could she see the loneliness in my eyes? I'm pretty sure I hid it very well...

"Who told you to butt into my business?!"

It was one of those days when he didn't exactly want to see anyone. Especially her.

"I was just... never mind. I won't force you if you don't want to talk about it." There was a tinge of bitterness in her voice. She, too, was hurt.

It would be easier for him if she left feeling angry. But she wasn't. She was hurt. And he was so sure that it was his damn fault. He looked for her at her apartment. All he learned from her landlady was she hadn't come home yet.

Worry. Guilt. Regret. All of these emotions surged inside him, making him feel worse than ever.

And it didn't help that it was raining hard outside.

Where could she be?

After forty minutes of running outside in the rain, finally he firmly grasped the umbrella he was holding. There she was, at the park, walking leisurely as if nothing happened, as if it wasn't raining, as if he didn't tell her off.

Despite his mind telling him that he was only feeling pitiful of her at this very moment, he couldn't help but say what he'd been wanting to. After all, she was already soaking wet.

"I'm sorry." She turned around. While it was evident that she felt glad upon seeing him (she did smile after all), he could see sadness... in her eyes.

So that's what she saw.

He tried to say everything on his mind, to her. In the end, she said she couldn't take all the pain anymore and it was amazing of him to handle problems easier if he kept them inside him than if he told it to someone who could help him.

She said goodbye with one wish. Just one. For him to truly feel happiness.

A/N: Fiction. Not true. Also, feel free to assume who the characters are. XD

Yay! Ate Tin will be coming home for a while tomorrow! \o/
It's been almost a month since she slept in this house. Oh how I miss her. :(

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"I know you're out there."

I turn back time to relive each moment...
I turn back time to revive each emotion I've felt...
I turn back time to feel the happiness I have sensed some time in my life.

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