*Turning back time...with life's goodness.*

Monday, March 23, 2009

um, whatever.

I've had enough. You're never going to make me back down again.

Lately, there have been signs of you that linger around me. Most of them are concrete, and because of that, it leaves me hanging: What the hell are you doing to me?

I was so sure that I'd finally got ridden of you in my life once and for all. I was so sure that, despite having actual chances of meeting you again, I would never resort to being my same old vulnerable and stupid self if and when that time would come. Yet you keep on reappearing in my life, as if I'd made a wrong decision on ignoring my feelings for you.

But you know what? You will never change my mind. Read that? NEVER. Every single time you have always left me confused, and I will never let that happen again. I will never let you do this to me again, because I'll be too stupid to fall into the same trap I did twice already.

Now I know some are going to ask: He's a nice guy; why not give him a chance?

Well, I am very well-aware that I've given you more than enough chances, and honestly, I can never understand why.

No more chances--that's my promise to myself. I'm only human, and I can only do so much to prevent myself from doing the same mistake again. But definitely, I will never want to have anything to do with you anymore, even if your image begs to my face.

If anything, I will leave everything to chance, as something I would do according to my nature. I won't do anything else, because that's what causing the idiotic decisions to start, unless you do something about it. After all, a connection has to be two-way right? I will be willing if you are, as much as I never want to have to face you anymore, because that's just who I am. I give people what they deserve, what they give me.

In case you never change from the way that you are to me, at least I won't have any more regrets, just to show I've made the right choice. If we were meant to be more than what we were before or what we are now, then so be it. I simply wouldn't take matters into my hands this time around.

There are just so many people better than you--that's why.

"I'm glad I met you" @ 7:17 PM |

"I know you're out there."

I turn back time to relive each moment...
I turn back time to revive each emotion I've felt...
I turn back time to feel the happiness I have sensed some time in my life.

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