Wednesday, April 15, 2009

hope, confusion and heartbreak


My heart is aching.
It is as simple as that.

Tears are falling from my eyes.
You are still going to be my last thought
Before I close them, as I drift into sleep.

Despite my rude, harsh comments towards her,
Inside I am just hurting. Just hurting.
Hurt. Sad. Bitter.

There is nothing certain in this life,
Not even your current situation.
But uncertainty is far more applicable to me,
Because I do not know if I will ever have you.
That glittering, heavenly chance with you.

I cannot stand how much pain this is.
It is more painful that you are happy,
And I am not.

I try ever so hard to forget about you.
Yet I do not know why after all these years,
I still feel the same way about you.
Maybe even stronger than I thought it was.

I wish there was some concrete justification.
Why I am feeling like this,
Why I cannot let you go.

Perhaps the only hope I am clinging unto.
Simply, that is why.




Feels just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why can't it always be so good
But it's alright, I know you're out there
Doing what you've got to do

- Lost in Space, Lighthouse Family

People say watch your live through a glass
Desperately waiting on a chance
I know you're out there
Holding on
Holding out for me

- Unmistakable, Backstreet Boys


I feel so desperate.

"I'm glad I met you" @ 1:30 AM |






"I know you're out there."

I turn back time to relive each moment...
I turn back time to revive each emotion I've felt...
I turn back time to feel the happiness I have sensed some time in my life.

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THE ONE

Name: Jessie Age: 31
Writer, dreamer, fangirl.

Fandoms:
Whose Line is it Anyway?, House M.D., Doctor Who, The Office, Psych, Saturday Night Live, The Lonely Island, Community, Criminal Minds, New Girl, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, 嵐 (Arashi), V6, Snow Man, The Backstreet Boys, The Beatles, Game Grumps, Ninja Sex Party, Rooster Teeth, Achievement Hunter and Funhaus, G4TV, Watcher.

Favorites:
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who's not studying? *raises hand*
anyone watching AI? :O
um, whatever.
i wish my tears would reach you
because i was probably long gone
fangirl stories that don't involve me
anniversaries are always fun ^^;
oh god Sho-phase .__.
in keeping with tradition (and promises)
i can't think straight right now

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